"One day, I'll marry you"

2011 to be kept in mind

Ma sperie conexiunile

Le simt.
Au fost acolo dintotdeauna.
Chiar si cand regretam asta.

aiurea

I'm pathetic

-

Oh looook

Running of your own problems is shit

at this chapter I am really proud

Apathy is good, 'till you reach a point

Point I unfortunately reached.

Fact which now leads to problems I can't solve anymore.
Giving fucks are required in solving problems.

there's an empty place in my bones that calls out for something unknown

Money dear money

Ma tot bate gandul la viitor. Si nu-mi vine a crede nici macar mie, ca doar deh, precum se bine stie sunt  picata intr-un apatism atat de adanc incat nici nu mai zaresc iesirea.

E drept ca ideea de zero ma incanta, dar nu e vorba numai de faze nule aici.
Am inceput eu sa fac ceva cu visele mele daca le-as putea numi asa. Adica mi-am propus asta, si pana si simplul fapt de a-ti propune e un prim pas. Asta daca stii ca ai sa-l faci.

Si eu fac pasi.

Long time, no see

Azi a fost una din zilele alea in care daca ma vedeai puteai sa juri ca am cam trisat cu fericirea. But I didn't, spre mirarea mea eram mai mult pe post de "oh, lumea-i plina de bancuri bune" si nu faceam decat sa rad la ele (sau mai bine zis la ideea existentei lor).

Si ca tot veni vorba de fericire.
E un concept aparent aiurea, de vreme ce toata lumea care te vede cu zambetul pana la urechi te intreaba "ce ai" ca doar deh, nu e ceva de care ar trebui sa abuzezi prea mult.

Trist aspect.

P.S. Merg la ei maine, can't wait

as a matter of fact

am I that easy to forget?

Self, but...

it has to begin with "my-"

I'm done. With this I'm done.

I mean, you appear so so rarely, and, to make matters worse, not when I need you to be around. You're near me just 'after', not 'while', not 'before', just... 'after'. And there's nothing I can do anymore. Advice has no role in such moments. It's useless.

And I got bored to write novels, just because you missed the first part, but also the second, and so on.

It sucks, and no. I'm not sorry for stopping a thing that sucks from being so lame.

Came so close, to what I need most.

:)

Releasing the vapour into the lung

Proud of me, somehow

I mean I'm... really fine.
'just don't know why.

Though, in the past 3 weeks I can say I stayed & felt good at the same time without getting fucked up.

I guess that's the main reason.

All mine

[there is a light that never goes out]

Being yourself is a nice way of timewaste

I've been digging through me for months - not to say years, but slowly I can see the results.

Next goal?
Letting people know me.

It's not as if I've never existed, but that facade I always exposed screwed things up, everytime.

We change. That's all.

(Un)fortunately or... 

Meh, it depends from case to case.

Aspects of life

It tides on, crumbling every little point which enters that huge structure I know nothing about.

But it's okay, it really is.

Mhm, so

I realize I actually can't be happy without the help of euphoric substances.

During the effects things are okay, but when reality strikes me up it's like... 

Bollocks.

Living is easy with eyes closed, misunderstanding all you see.

Weird how bad things seem to happen at the same time.

* and also weird how two people, no matter who, can't be happy at once

Unpredictability

At least there's a thing I know.

Waiting for something to happen will always make that something not to take place.

Out of order

~ consumed ~

What. A. Lame. Country.

I thought it was a joke or something, but nope.

Opeth really cancelled their concert. 

And, as far as I can see, it's some sort of... official news.

I love these people too much not to get hurt...

It should be physics

when it's actually music

As for the rest, da fuck m'am?

My laptop got damaged, the battery from my player ran down and... a few lot more absences just added to my huge collection.

Heavy night last night

Shoegaze is gonna worsen it.

Yesterday

My mouth went talking and talking and....

talking.

But, because of this song, I fell apart.

Nobody noticed though. 

(happily I'm a good actress)

Slowly but safe I'll begin to like me

Hedonism is hard to learn.

But once you get the idea you can say life is beautiful and really mean it.

One of these moments when rusty music drifts all over your head and you can do nothing at all

And on the other hand, I'll never understand why summer makes me so damn girlie :-? 

Self-decisions. Important ones.

Okay, so and because of me the next three months are gonna be clear headed.
And my everlasting obsession everyone knows about will...tadam! :D, disappear.
I put my trust in me.
(although I'm unreliable, but as a matter of fact)

To be honest?

No thanks.

Overstressed

My eyelids, for instance. Every time I don't pay attention to them they seem to close.

And things which stay to my face. 

I don't see them, so I'm searching all over the house, to jump eventually at the conclusion that oh. Fuck. It's right here in front of you, Diana.

The pawn

And the long way it's gonna be followed by.

P.S. I entirely hate how the phrase "never enough" sounds, so please :D 

Erase it from your mind, if it's there

Distrust

screw you

all

Falling into the clarity of undoing

Keywords

It's just... foolish for one person to

you get the idea.

But still... 

Oh fuck.

I became bored of that trying-to-figure-out thing.

At the edge of the world

I always thought I have no feelings

Until I found them.

Art therapy is great

Love it 

Twist your knife a little deeper

Special thanks to my bipolarity crises

Now and because of you everything is so
 messed
up!

:-L

This song ruins me :-?

 

Every. Fucking. Time.

and no matter how happy I am

Better than heaven itself

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
[got the tickets]

Alcohol, quarrels and relationships I don't wanna get involved in

Usual stuff I mean. 

Hand in hand with the strength/ambition/power/temporary optimism/and all the similar shits responsible for getting over something, whatever that something might be.

Roots so deep, head so high

Hangover, more exactly.

Together with old-classic-kinda' gay rock songs. 

Pomelnicul

Alice Cooper - Poison

Scorpions - Wind of Change

RHCP - Snow

Aerosmith - Jaded

Joe Satriani - I Believe

Scuza :))
Karaoke nights - Put the blame on them.

A conclusion drawn by the end of the week

Toată lumea are-un ochi câş.

* dar doar unul

What's up

Not only

but also

*

Beware of that sharp-edged weapon called human being.

Firstly, inject the venom

Then we'll...

 see

Nu stiu. Si as vrea, dar...

sunt in stadiul in care mi se acreste de tot